PadawanOfHappiness

The past few days have been a big struggle for me.  My scale was not going down, it had held steady and then started to creep up again.  Uggg.  I knew that it was bound to happen there are always plateaus and setbacks but it is still demoralizing.  I felt like this panda. ---> I did a lot of mental pep talks reminding myself that this is normal, that I have had a stressful 5 days and that will impact things, and I had been having problems with Noom and hadn't been able to log things well and I wasn't really sure how much I was eating calorie-wise, and of course with sinus congestion and pressure that makes it really hard to work out so that was lagging. For me, I know that I am emotional eater, specifically when I am stressed and beating up on myself will not limit my stress.  I crave crunchy things specifically cheeze-its, potato chips, nachos and sometimes I just let myself give in.  On good days I can make crunchy substitutes with baby carrots and...

I was cleaning out some notes on my phone and I found one that made me stop and realize how far my journey in 2019 has brought me.  I had just celebrated some achievements my son has mad and I need to celebrate mine too.  So here it is. In January 2019 my PCP had me see a cardiologist because my blood pressure (BP) was out of control.  He put me on a third medication and gave me a target range for my BP and said he would check in with me in 3 months.  I remember being fearful but determined.  The goal he gave me still seemed high but I wrote it down so I could remember it.  Here is what I wrote out. Seeing this note I realized two things: I need to take my BP more consistently.  I fell off the wagon At that 3 month check-in I was well below that. And I have continued to do amazing work.  I am not convinced it is all due to the medicine I think it was multiple things.  Since January I have worked to reduce my stress ...