Lessons from unexpected places
Yesterday was not a great day. The day before I felt great, I was proud of what I was doing and the progress managing my stress and enjoying what I have. So why did I had very little motivation and through out the day why was my stress and anxiety growing? That made me MAD!
At the end of the night I was realizing the why, I was feeling like classic symptoms of "I am not good enough". Mr. Padawan was as always very supportive and I felt bad as I vented, knowing he was exhausted but as he said this is what we do we support each other and I did the same for him when he walked in the door. Not only did he listen he helped with suggestions and reminded me of the good things I do and how great I am. His advice:
That made me laugh and I needed that and he even offered to go get some paper to make a list but I declined. I was starting to settle. So today I did not make a list per se but I have been checking off things. Not necessarily what I should be focused on in terms of the business stuff but that I can make up and the reality is that if my head is not in it then it will take a lot longer to do and be frustrating. I found myself making myself my salt scrubs that I have been meaning to do for three weeks, doing laundry that had piled up because I had been sick, and other odds and ends around the house.
And oddly enough I watched Wife Swap on Lifetime, I am still trying to figure out why I did this. And as I watched and I realized that the intention of the show is to find couples that are at the extreme of the spectrum, but it helped remind me of how good I have it. It also helped me remember to find the joy in my life, and focus on what I have and how good it is. That doesn't mean that I cannot strive for more it just means don't strive for more at the expense of what I have.
At the end of the night I was realizing the why, I was feeling like classic symptoms of "I am not good enough". Mr. Padawan was as always very supportive and I felt bad as I vented, knowing he was exhausted but as he said this is what we do we support each other and I did the same for him when he walked in the door. Not only did he listen he helped with suggestions and reminded me of the good things I do and how great I am. His advice:
Make list, check things off. You love checking things off the list.
That made me laugh and I needed that and he even offered to go get some paper to make a list but I declined. I was starting to settle. So today I did not make a list per se but I have been checking off things. Not necessarily what I should be focused on in terms of the business stuff but that I can make up and the reality is that if my head is not in it then it will take a lot longer to do and be frustrating. I found myself making myself my salt scrubs that I have been meaning to do for three weeks, doing laundry that had piled up because I had been sick, and other odds and ends around the house.
And oddly enough I watched Wife Swap on Lifetime, I am still trying to figure out why I did this. And as I watched and I realized that the intention of the show is to find couples that are at the extreme of the spectrum, but it helped remind me of how good I have it. It also helped me remember to find the joy in my life, and focus on what I have and how good it is. That doesn't mean that I cannot strive for more it just means don't strive for more at the expense of what I have.
Do not spoil what you have by desiring what you have not; remember that what you now have was once among the things you only hoped for. ~ Epicurus
There was a time that I wished that we had more time as a family not doing chores, guess what I have that. Starting the business leaves me time to get those chores done during the work week (for the most part).
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