PadawanOfHappiness

Ok so the good news is that I don't have a full fledged mask with my CPAP machine, it is just this uber sexy nose pillow and the hose sits at the top of my head so it doesn't get in the way too much.  And it is really pretty quiet which is good. It does feel kind of weird as I get used to it and for the most part I don't feel like I am driving down the highway with my head out the window which is good.  Last night was a bad night, something wasn't quite right and there was a hissing sound like there was an airleak somewhere and I couldn't find it.  It couldn't have been that bad since my app gave me a good score but I did see that last night's "leak' value was higher than any other night.  Normally I am between 1-3, last night I was at 8.  Not sure what is up with that. I have noticed that for the most part I have been waking up around 5 AM fairly well rested and ready to go, but I just don't want to leave my bed because I LOVE my bed and...

Since coming home from vacation and the start of the year, I refocused myself on my goals of losing weight and being healthier.  I did start exercising on a regular basis again, and while I am not yet counting calories again I have been working on portion size again. I have seen the results and my weight is back to where it was in mid-November.  And I just took a look at the numbers and between mid-November and the end of December my fluctuation was only 5 pounds, that is nothing to sneeze at and completely falls into the normal fluctuations of life.  Yes, I have to write this out to help me internalize and accept this, but I can do that.  Some may not see it as a reason to celebrate but I do because this was a very huge win for me.  It is helping me see that I can do this, and while I wasn't vigilant the habits that I had worked hard to establish were taking hold and I was basically in a holding pattern for a month and a half, and that is not a bad place to ...

Ok so I have completely failed this blog in terms of posting my progress etc but I have not failed in working on my happiness.   I was inspired by a post in my Happiness Project Book club FB post, our leader asked what we accomplished. As a reminder, this is what 2019 (and this blog) were meant to be. 2019 - The year of putting on my own oxygen mask on first. I believe by doing this it will help me live a fuller and happier life. Moving me to be the better person, wife, and Mom that I want to be and creating some amazing memories along the way. First of all, I want to say that I am still a work in progress but I am certainly on my way and I am better than I was before.  And I know that I want to focus on progress not perfection.   I focused on my health, the mental, emotional, and physical aspects of it.  Honestly, I think our health is like a plate of spaghetti you move one noodle and it moves another.  So even when I focused on...