Back on the wagon, but boy do I have work to do.
Since coming home from vacation and the start of the year, I refocused myself on my goals of losing weight and being healthier. I did start exercising on a regular basis again, and while I am not yet counting calories again I have been working on portion size again.
I have seen the results and my weight is back to where it was in mid-November. And I just took a look at the numbers and between mid-November and the end of December my fluctuation was only 5 pounds, that is nothing to sneeze at and completely falls into the normal fluctuations of life. Yes, I have to write this out to help me internalize and accept this, but I can do that. Some may not see it as a reason to celebrate but I do because this was a very huge win for me. It is helping me see that I can do this, and while I wasn't vigilant the habits that I had worked hard to establish were taking hold and I was basically in a holding pattern for a month and a half, and that is not a bad place to be.
As I said I am exercising regularly again but I have also taken up the Walk 20 in 20 challenge from the Happier Podcast. I have my team, comprised of my sisters and one niece and since we are not local to each other we text each other to encourage the group to get our time in. I am counting this in addition to my regular work out. I am also posting pics on my IG account as well to help keep me motivated.
That being said this is not all wine and roses, I am doing my best to capitalize on the wins I mentioned above to help me through my current hurdle. Back in October I did a sleep study and I failed. Today I received my cpap machine, it makes me feel old and defective. While my rational brain knows that this is a good thing and it has the potential to help with other issues that I have (sleep apnea can cause issues with blood pressure and weight gain/trouble losing weight), the irrational side is yelling NNNNOOOOOO it isn't fair, I don't wanna do it.
I am going to do my best to focus on giving this time to work and do my best to try to identify how I feel in a week after using the machine. It has the potential to make me feel more awake and energetic, and who knows maybe it will help with the BP issues and maybe just maybe this coupled with losing weight means that I might be able to reduce some medications. 🤞 I am sure I will have follow up appointments with my doctor to figure out what is best, don't worry I won't take myself off any medications on my own.
Overall I have to remember that:
I have more work to do and I need to remember that in January 2019 I didn't want to make the changes I was making, but I did it anyway and I feel better. Sure I don't want to make this change but I need to do it and see if I feel better, more than likely I will. I just need to suck it up and put in the work in, or in this case put on the literal mask on.
I have seen the results and my weight is back to where it was in mid-November. And I just took a look at the numbers and between mid-November and the end of December my fluctuation was only 5 pounds, that is nothing to sneeze at and completely falls into the normal fluctuations of life. Yes, I have to write this out to help me internalize and accept this, but I can do that. Some may not see it as a reason to celebrate but I do because this was a very huge win for me. It is helping me see that I can do this, and while I wasn't vigilant the habits that I had worked hard to establish were taking hold and I was basically in a holding pattern for a month and a half, and that is not a bad place to be.
As I said I am exercising regularly again but I have also taken up the Walk 20 in 20 challenge from the Happier Podcast. I have my team, comprised of my sisters and one niece and since we are not local to each other we text each other to encourage the group to get our time in. I am counting this in addition to my regular work out. I am also posting pics on my IG account as well to help keep me motivated.
That being said this is not all wine and roses, I am doing my best to capitalize on the wins I mentioned above to help me through my current hurdle. Back in October I did a sleep study and I failed. Today I received my cpap machine, it makes me feel old and defective. While my rational brain knows that this is a good thing and it has the potential to help with other issues that I have (sleep apnea can cause issues with blood pressure and weight gain/trouble losing weight), the irrational side is yelling NNNNOOOOOO it isn't fair, I don't wanna do it.
I am going to do my best to focus on giving this time to work and do my best to try to identify how I feel in a week after using the machine. It has the potential to make me feel more awake and energetic, and who knows maybe it will help with the BP issues and maybe just maybe this coupled with losing weight means that I might be able to reduce some medications. 🤞 I am sure I will have follow up appointments with my doctor to figure out what is best, don't worry I won't take myself off any medications on my own.
Overall I have to remember that:
- Life is not fair.
- Sometimes we have to do stuff we don't like at the moment so that we feel better overall.
- Life is not always easy.
I have more work to do and I need to remember that in January 2019 I didn't want to make the changes I was making, but I did it anyway and I feel better. Sure I don't want to make this change but I need to do it and see if I feel better, more than likely I will. I just need to suck it up and put in the work in, or in this case put on the literal mask on.
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