End of January
👍 Ok so here we are at the end of the month, so this week is short in terms of days in the month. I started the month on a Tuesday and I am ending on a Thursday.
I will admit it, week for 4 really bad for me it really threw my momentum off and starting out feeling like crud really didn't help me any and I had difficulty actually getting back on task. So here is the deal I tried to get back on task and only had minimal success. I really am an all or nothing girl in some aspects, like with exercise.
By the end of the week I was feeling better and then boom my muscle issues reared their ugly head which then makes things worse. I have come to two conclusions (1) despite the morning after sluggishness I need to go back to the muscle relaxers with out them I am not making progress and having more regressions. (2) one of my PTs is great and the massage that he does feels fantastic and not too hard however both times the next day I felt horrible despite the icing and advil taking I have done. I need to ask for a lighter touch because the backlash is not good.
I managed a good work out on Saturday and then on Sunday oh boy I got hit with another stomach issue which could have been related to the poor eating choices I made the night before on date night and at the game. I was ready to talk myself back into the game today, but then last night happened.
My oldest had a very scary nightmare so I spent several hours up with him and of course that meant laying (and occasional sleeping) in a twin bed with him. It was certainly the right thing to do for him and as his Mother I needed to do it, but it was not the right thing for me. This event is an example of what makes it really hard to put your own oxygen mask on first and what I am coming to realize (even if I knew it subconsciously) is that this process is not an all or nothing thing and it will take time to be comfortable making choices.
And that is what it comes down to, sometimes I need to do things for my family before me and sometimes I need to do things for me first so that I can do for my family later. Just because I made the decision last night for my son to be the priority doesn't mean that I need to continue to do that, I need to evaluate the choices as they come and make sure that I maintain a reasonable balance. I do know that the lack of sleep and the pain I am in today as a result will mean that for the immediate time I need to put the focus back on me so that I can be there when I am needed later.
Overall assessment 👍 is that by Thursday while I will not have mastered the month's goal of having more energy I will say that I am well on my way there. I am close and I know what I need to do and when I fail I am getting back on the wagon much more quickly than the previous times I have fallen. That is a big win in my book and I am happy with my progress and will continue to work on my energy for the year because all of these things are tied together.
I will admit it, week for 4 really bad for me it really threw my momentum off and starting out feeling like crud really didn't help me any and I had difficulty actually getting back on task. So here is the deal I tried to get back on task and only had minimal success. I really am an all or nothing girl in some aspects, like with exercise.
By the end of the week I was feeling better and then boom my muscle issues reared their ugly head which then makes things worse. I have come to two conclusions (1) despite the morning after sluggishness I need to go back to the muscle relaxers with out them I am not making progress and having more regressions. (2) one of my PTs is great and the massage that he does feels fantastic and not too hard however both times the next day I felt horrible despite the icing and advil taking I have done. I need to ask for a lighter touch because the backlash is not good.
I managed a good work out on Saturday and then on Sunday oh boy I got hit with another stomach issue which could have been related to the poor eating choices I made the night before on date night and at the game. I was ready to talk myself back into the game today, but then last night happened.
My oldest had a very scary nightmare so I spent several hours up with him and of course that meant laying (and occasional sleeping) in a twin bed with him. It was certainly the right thing to do for him and as his Mother I needed to do it, but it was not the right thing for me. This event is an example of what makes it really hard to put your own oxygen mask on first and what I am coming to realize (even if I knew it subconsciously) is that this process is not an all or nothing thing and it will take time to be comfortable making choices.
And that is what it comes down to, sometimes I need to do things for my family before me and sometimes I need to do things for me first so that I can do for my family later. Just because I made the decision last night for my son to be the priority doesn't mean that I need to continue to do that, I need to evaluate the choices as they come and make sure that I maintain a reasonable balance. I do know that the lack of sleep and the pain I am in today as a result will mean that for the immediate time I need to put the focus back on me so that I can be there when I am needed later.
Overall assessment 👍 is that by Thursday while I will not have mastered the month's goal of having more energy I will say that I am well on my way there. I am close and I know what I need to do and when I fail I am getting back on the wagon much more quickly than the previous times I have fallen. That is a big win in my book and I am happy with my progress and will continue to work on my energy for the year because all of these things are tied together.
Comments
Post a Comment