Course Corrections

After Friday night's mini meltdown and some discussion with my family, I feel like I was able to course correct pretty quickly yesterday.  I am not sure what the optimal alone time is for me but I am working on it.  I did get my 20 minutes in the morning and then in the afternoon, I did another 30 minute walk by myself and then did some coloring in the kitchen alone.  Sure the other 3 Padawans were in the other room watching a movie and I could hear both them and the movie but it seemed to work for me.

I am feeling better about today and optimistic again.  I really do credit Gretchen's books for helping me see that only I can make myself happy and the importance of taking care of myself.  I still need to put that oxygen mask on first in order to help others.  I am proud of myself for recognizing the signs of a melt down earlier than I would have previously so that my so call melt down was just binge watching shows that I know Mr. Padawan hates so that I would be alone.  It was not a flailing and flaming meltdown that would make me regret things I said and did, as far as meltdowns go this was certainly a good one.


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