Fridays....my melt down day?
Last Friday was a week in sequester and I started to lose it and needed to take some serious extra time to be alone. I even went as far as watching three shows on demand that I know Mr.Padawan does not like and leaves the room when I watch them just so I could be alone, crazy right?
Things were getting better on Saturday and I did get a bit of extra time alone that day too and things seemed to be settling down nicely, sure there were a few bumps along the road but nothing major. And then before I knew it, Friday is here and I am feeling the pressure again. My mind is going a million miles a minute and I am having difficulty concentrating on anything. My kids, seriously are doing fantastic given the circumstances and their specific challenges, but are driving me batty and every last little thing is getting on my nerves. I keep reminding myself of how good they are doing and that my perception is off, which is of itself a weird feeling, I know one thing and yet feeling it in a different way, my logic brain, and emotional brain are interpreting the same event in two different ways. This is an instance where I need my logical brain to win so I keep repeating to myself they are doing well and I need to let it go.
The other thing is that I am STARVING today, not sure why but there it is. I am actively trying to avoid gaining the COVID-19 (you know like the freshman 15 only worse!) and going to try to lose the COVID-19. The reality is that I expect to be in sequester for another 5-ish week and losing 19 lbs in 5 weeks doesn't exactly seem healthy to me, which means that no I am not going to try to lose the COVID-19. I am aiming for something that seems more attainable, and healthier, I am going to try to lose 8-10 in the next 5-ish weeks.
I certainly have a leg up on this challenge because I have been sticking with my #Walk20In20 challenge. But starting on Monday (because Mondays are a clean slate day for me) I will once again do Jillian Micahel's beginner Shred program which is a 30-day program. The series runs M-F, doing the math that is 6 weeks, but it is close enough I am not going to get caught up in making it exact, good enough will do for my purposes.
In the mean time, I have put Mr.Padawan on high alert that Fridays maybe my bad day when I need to lean on him a bit more than normal and I will keep working through it. And as Annie sings 'The Sun Will Come Out Tomorrow" so I am going to be back in a better mental place soon. I will also focus on some future fun, next Wednesday is April Fools Day, which I normally loath but I am cooking up some fun with Mr.Padawan to surprise the boys with. Fingers crossed we make it work.
I am also working on my postcard project, I am making new cards and I have my test sample cards ready to go, I am just waiting on the stamps. I have a
Things were getting better on Saturday and I did get a bit of extra time alone that day too and things seemed to be settling down nicely, sure there were a few bumps along the road but nothing major. And then before I knew it, Friday is here and I am feeling the pressure again. My mind is going a million miles a minute and I am having difficulty concentrating on anything. My kids, seriously are doing fantastic given the circumstances and their specific challenges, but are driving me batty and every last little thing is getting on my nerves. I keep reminding myself of how good they are doing and that my perception is off, which is of itself a weird feeling, I know one thing and yet feeling it in a different way, my logic brain, and emotional brain are interpreting the same event in two different ways. This is an instance where I need my logical brain to win so I keep repeating to myself they are doing well and I need to let it go.
The other thing is that I am STARVING today, not sure why but there it is. I am actively trying to avoid gaining the COVID-19 (you know like the freshman 15 only worse!) and going to try to lose the COVID-19. The reality is that I expect to be in sequester for another 5-ish week and losing 19 lbs in 5 weeks doesn't exactly seem healthy to me, which means that no I am not going to try to lose the COVID-19. I am aiming for something that seems more attainable, and healthier, I am going to try to lose 8-10 in the next 5-ish weeks.
I certainly have a leg up on this challenge because I have been sticking with my #Walk20In20 challenge. But starting on Monday (because Mondays are a clean slate day for me) I will once again do Jillian Micahel's beginner Shred program which is a 30-day program. The series runs M-F, doing the math that is 6 weeks, but it is close enough I am not going to get caught up in making it exact, good enough will do for my purposes.
In the mean time, I have put Mr.Padawan on high alert that Fridays maybe my bad day when I need to lean on him a bit more than normal and I will keep working through it. And as Annie sings 'The Sun Will Come Out Tomorrow" so I am going to be back in a better mental place soon. I will also focus on some future fun, next Wednesday is April Fools Day, which I normally loath but I am cooking up some fun with Mr.Padawan to surprise the boys with. Fingers crossed we make it work.
I am also working on my postcard project, I am making new cards and I have my test sample cards ready to go, I am just waiting on the stamps. I have a
- ModPodge only card
- ModPodge and clear sealer card (several actually)
- clear sealer only card (two)
I am really hoping the stamps come in soon since I am almost out of regular cards and stamps.
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