I am tired

 

I have spent the final months of the previous school year and this summer caring and proving for my kids in this strange environment.  Trying to show them compassion because they don't really understand why they can't see their friends nor their grandparents at certain times.  I am tired of being compassionate to those that scream BUT SCIENCE and spread hysteria rather than being thoughtful and cautious.  I am tired and I have compassion fatigue.

All households break their responsibilities down in different ways that work for them.  However, with COVID I kept my regular responsibilities and then also added in, school proctor, summer day camp provider, organizer and de-clutter in chief.  I am just tired.  I miss my solitude.

Look all over the internet and you will see the 'experts' say take care of yourself, practice self care.  Well the reality for myself and probably others as well is that is only possible to a point.  This introvert has been doing ok but 20 minutes a day is nothing, I need hours a day.  And honestly where am I going to go?  Where can I send the kids?

 I am typically a homebody and love my house, but the inability to just take off on a whim (which admittedly was rarely done but I had the option!) is really draining. 

So yeah today is not a good day with Staying Sane with Stay At Home. :(  But alas I do know that this too shall pass, but my heart just doesn't feel it right now.

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