PadawanOfHappiness

Raise you hand if you are done feeling like Charlie Brown as he plays football with Lucy (aka various government officials).   Yeah me too.  We are quickly closing in on one year of living in this Orwellian time of Pandemic lock down.  Remember when it was 2 weeks to flatten the curve?  And then it was just through the summer, and then  once we get a vaccine and now Dr. Fauci is saying wear masks until 2022.  I call BS.  There has been a steady drumbeat of "follow the science" and similar slogans, which is fine if those yelling out that line actually followed science and didn't use science as a weapon of control.  While I was reasonably skeptical of many of the recommendations I was willing to go along with masks and social distancing because I understood that safety was important and we didn't know a lot about the virus.  I could live with a certain amount of so call flip flopping, provided there was data to support the change, you know scie...

Last week the pressure began to build again and I didn't recognize the signs.  The stress of the lock downs which includes added stress from my kids because they have extra emotional, mental, and physical demands from the stress and don't know what to do with it.  Not that we adults do but we are slightly better equipped to handle it and they are not, so they turn to us their parents. The stress of yet another school break which means a break in consistency that kids crave, especially right now with all the turmoil.  The stress of the news, and cancel this and that and who is bad, and who is not, yada yada yada.  It was just too much.  I started to get more irritable easily and just really wanted to hide, and I was ripe for Obliger Rebellion. In the past I have been able to identify the pressure and the need to blow of steam and do so before I went crazy.  This time not so much, I didn't recognize it until I was in the midst of it and then I just decided to...

 Double standards....I do loath them. I am not a fan of cancel culture, but I do believe that people need to be accountable for their actions.  You can be held accountable without being canceled. I also think I can respect someone's work while not agreeing with their personal political opinions.  I also think you can agree that a specific statement or goal has merit but not agree on how to achieve that goal.  By having different ideas of how to achieve it does not mean you are 'anti' whatever. I really enjoyed the Mandalorian....I was not a fan of what Pedro Pascal posted especially considering his pictures were supposedly depicting the US but they were from another country.  But he can say stuff I just turn the channel so to speak.  I respect his work and disagree with his personal opinion, it can happen.  I understand Gina Carano's point and I see the relevance, but I personally shy away for comparisons like that but they are perfectly valid.  S...

I have been spending some time reading more about introverts, and specifically how to help introverts in business.  I own my business and I have to be the sales person as well as the technical person.  I like people well enough, and in fact I enjoy helping them complete the process of them creating or updating their website.  I like to solve problems.  But some aspects of being a business owner are difficult for introverts, namely the sales process.  I am always looking for ways to help me become more tolerant of the process and hope to have neutral feelings on the process, I know I will never love it. One of the personality traits of an introvert: You are drained by social interactions While extroverts would not dare miss a Friday night out with friends, introverts know when they’ve maxed out and need to refuel their batteries. That’s not to say all introverts will flake out of parties — they can and do enjoy them as much as any extrovert — but at the end o...

Valentine's day is coming up on this Sunday, and neither Mr. Padawan or I really do a ton to celebrate it.  I don't find the holiday offensive but it just isn't really our thing.  One of the reasons I am not a huge fan is the cost and I am frugal in nature.  We keep things relatively low key and do not ignore the day itself. I sent Valentine's in with the little Padawans (because they had to be in early to be quarantined🤯 and well school vacation (don't get me started) is next week so no one will be in school that week.  Mr. Padawan and I will give each other cards, we will have our annual dinner of Pizza and Prosecco, a nod to our first Valentine's together when there was a big storm so we just had pizza and Champagne.  Yes we do now have Prosecco rather than Champagne as a nod to our honeymoon in Italy, don't tell the French but I think he Prosecco better. One of the things that I have been struggling with during this whole lockdown (regardless of which c...

I got myself back on the bandwagon because my jeans were tight, uncomfortably tight and I hate clothes shopping so the thought of shopping and for a larger size too gave me some serious motivation. Sadly, just as I made that decision to start using my Noom App again and add in more than my daily walk into my exercise program I got walloped with an anxiety attack for multiple days. I did a lot of praying, music therapy, positive self talk, cheer leading from Mr. Padawan, and focusing on what was good in my life and what I could control.  When I am nervous I eat, however when I am anxious I don't.  Apparently I do burn calories like crazy.  Sure I dropped quite a few pounds very quickly and if I went by the scale alone I would be ecstatic.  The rapid heart beat and always feeling like something was missing, and the tension building in my shoulders due to the anxiety, all made me feel HORRIBLE . Not only was the rapid weight loss not healthy, it is not something that is...